Here’s the thing. Listen up clear and listen up close. Im in for the long run. For the big jump; for the giant leap of faith. Im in this because I want to and every ounce of blood in my body is pumping faster as Im thinking about this and all I want is to make this work. I dont do temporary. I dont do things that I know wont end well. I dont put my heart in a volcano and expect it to come back unscathed. I am not ready for that kind of exhilaration and pain. I am petrified beyond my wits. I dont know how people do that. Put their heart and soul on the line just to have it walked over time and time again. But thats not me. I take care of my heart and I want it to see less pain; as stupid as it may seem. I am in for the big one. I want you and I want all of you. I want the messy bits especially. And I want you take my messy bits and throw them around. Lets scatter all our little bits and pieces and see which ones we really need and which ones we cant live without. Lets dance to no music and lets jump on the bed every morning until the springs come off lose and there are feathers everywhere. Lets shake things up a bit and see where this goes.
But dont tell me that youre not in for the big haul. That you dont want a happily ever after to this. That all you want is smiles and giggles and 3AM conversation when you wont sit with me for the rest of our lives.