I don’t understand the fascination with wanting to get with someone and settling down as soon as possible and flaunt to the world that this is us and this is our oh-so-perfect little relationship and this is our life here on and there you all are stuck in your own little miserable world with your solitude and your book and you cat.
I don’t see the logic behind that. I don’t understand why you would want to give yourself self away to someone before even realising what it is that you are giving away. Do you understand the magnitude of that sort of a commitment? No, don’t get me wrong. I am a firm believer of finding your happiness in someone else. But that is not what is happening. You are jumping on the very first opportunity that has arisen and you Bolt. You smooth your edges and you wear a glass screen over your eyes. You seal your lips and shut your ears to all things bad. You see no good, you hear no good and say no good. And just like that you expect the world to be perfect because you have done your “bit”. Well sorry to burst your little bubble pumpkin, but the world isn’t as good as you want it to be and you aren’t safe and you can’t expect that just because you aren’t seeing any evil that no evil is happening at all.
There is so much about yourself that you have yet to discover. There is so much beauty within that you has been waiting to emerge, for the right time to come. There is so much magic and mist and wonder and amusement that you have yet to explore. There is a world full of possibilities that you haven’t seen. A number of avenues that you haven’t walked through. And I understand that if that were the case, we would forever be finding ourselves and that is true indeed. But look at this. You are deciding to dedicate all parts of you to him and hopefully he is ready to do the same. But in all honesty, how much of yourself do you actually know? Do you know who you truly are to the very core of your being? Do you realize what it means to let down your walls and actually have them invaded? Do you realize that your insecurities are out in the open and that they are not at all pretty?
You are who you are and that is inevitable. But have you gotten around to accepting that and truly being comfortable in your skin? Have you understood what it means to love and to be loved? To have it all on the line and wake up every waking moment worried sick about what the next one holds?
Take a time out and find out these little things about yourself. Look deep inside and find out what you really are, who you are really ready to spend the rest of your life with. Find out if you are who you always thought you would be or in the passage of time.. Have things changed. And if so, find a way to learn to accept this and everything else. Because you are constantly changing and you may not realize how important it is to keep up with that. You are a marvellous being and you are setting about a very tough journey ahead of you.
Make sure you have your baggage handled.