I Know that You Left before Goodbye, But It’s Okay.

One day you’ll wake up at 3 AM in the morning, shaken; and you will realize that you no longer miss your first love. That you are sleeping next to that special someone that gave you everything you could ever ask for and without even realising he gave you the gift of a lifetime; the gift of finally being able to forget Him. To be able to wake up everyday and not count how many days it has been since and how much more longer until the horizon is finally visible. To be able to carry your day without constantly sighing and having to take two painkillers before lunch. To be able to go back to bed with as much as energy as you woke up with. One day you will wake up and realize that even though you were both madly in love, he is gone and he isn’t coming back. He made that decision for himself and he never did look back.. so why did you? For years you tormented yourself with the thought of his face and how his nose crinkled and eyes glowed. How the back of his neck felt and his body fit right next to yours.  How one second he was there and the next.. he wasn’t.

One day you will wake up and realize that at the end of the day, he never did truly love you. Because you don’t destroy and break the people that you love. And even if you somehow manage to do so.. You stay. You stay and you mend things. You stay for as long as you have to and you try, day after day; you try and mend things and you hope to god that it gets better, for the both of you. You try until the smile on their face is finally genuine and you try until they finally wake up in the morning with a spring in their feet. You try and you make them happy and you Keep them happy until the end of time. That is what you do to the people you have hurt and damaged. You never leave them.

And that day, you will curl up next your special someone and fall back asleep because you knew who stayed.

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